Hi,
We haven’t spoken
before, but I know what you are going through.
You are not alone in this world.
You are not the only one that questions your life every single day. We've all been taught that we should never
question the system we live in and just be happy with our meager existence
working jobs we hate, to buy crap on credit cards that we pay off for the rest
of our lives. Being a leader in today's world and making change is dangerous. This is not how life has
to be my friend. There is a rebellion of
free thinkers out there that no one will tell you about because they don’t go
along with the system. These people have
found happiness in traveling the world and making experiences instead of buying
new coffee tables and cars. We are out
there, but you have to speak first.
Let me tell you my
story…For 30 years of my life, I was a typical guy from the Midwest who was
more afraid of nuclear war then snake bites and bee stings because cable TV
sold me those fears. Almost a year ago,
I basically packed up what clothes and possessions could fit in my car, every
“priceless” memory I was holding onto my entire life that could not fit, got
thrown away. This was the hardest moment
of my life! After 5 years of living in
Ohio, I escaped to join the rebellion to San Diego, CA. My trip was unique in that I Couchsurfed (Couchsurfing.org)
for an entire month from city to city, 14 in total, but I’ve also seen 37 US
states now and 7 countries.
Let me back up a
step. I started my career in Wisconsin
and ended up in Ohio for 5 years and worked a typical boring "Office
Space" engineering job for many years. After becoming jaded with the
corporate system over the years in job after job telling me how amazing their
workplace was and why I should come work for them, I ended up leaving a 7 month
position, very unhappy and unhappy with life overall in the Midwest.
I found that my open mindedness and health conscious decisions made
it hard to make friends in Ohio, because if you aren’t from Ohio they don’t
want you there. The same holds true for
my hometown friends who still hang out in the same place with the same people
they did a decade ago.
Three years ago, I was
fortunate to meet my first French friend in Ohio. I had no idea, but international people
have just as hard of a time befriending Midwesterners. Through networking
parties, I got to hang out with 50+ people at a time. This was awesome for me actually because
where I’m from, no one spoke anything but Spanish. Now I was surrounded by people from all over
the world! They were very welcoming
because they had no friends and had more open minded views. I grew up an
overweight kid in poverty in Wisconsin and I had lost 70 pounds back in Madison
and now had just quit the highest paying job of my life.
After a week, I hadn’t
told anyone I left my job for the first time in my life and had no backup. I was nervous as hell, because this was the
first time I had nothing lined up in 7 years.
One thing to note is that in those 7 years I had never really gone on
more than a weekend vacation. A week
later after being jaded looking at new jobs that all sounded equally
"Office Space"-ish, I was invited out for, as my friend Enrico called
it, a "beer that changed my life". My international friends and
I joke about it now. At the time, I felt down in the dumps for being so
careless. Friday night I get a text from
my Italian friend Enrico, didn't want to go out. I just wanted to wallow in my misery. Enrico had 4 friends out that said “just come
out for one.”
I joined them at a bar
that had the biggest worldwide craft beer selection in town. Upon entering, to my right I have an
energetic Italian couple and to my left a more reserved looking German friend
and his Indian girlfriend. I had hung out with these guys a lot, but this
time was different. Honestly, I was anxious to get home and sulk. They asked what I was doing and I said
looking for jobs. They were shocked and asked "what the hell man!?"
Over that beer, I told them the full story of how that day came to
be.
The story went like
this. For 2 years now I had been trying
to escape being an engineer that just sits behind a computer all day and makes 3D
computer models. I am basically a
trained monkey. When you have no
challenges at work there is little motivation to work. In 7 years I NEVER even talked to anyone...I
couldn’t even tell you one phone number I ever had at work. They were all saying “Haha, what?!” I
had started part time grad school a year before trying to become a project
manager or sales person, someone that TALKS to people on a daily basis.
Luckily, or unluckily, I got hired as a project manager at a company
in a great industry making more money than I could ever imagine! I
thought it was my dream...turns out not.
My dreams were
shattered because the only person who could train me, an engineer I met in my
interview...he quit the Friday before I started on Monday...and the electrical
engineer followed. This was due to managerial changes that happened
before I even started. Nobody told me that 25% of the staff had just
quit...so the first day, the first thing my boss says to me is
"SORRY"..."sorry
there is no one to train you in a field you haven't worked in"...My heart
sunk!!!
And from that day on,
my every day was like a terrible scavenger hunt to do work, finding files I
have no idea what they are named. Imagine looking for a
"widget" and someone called it a "whatzit" and you have to
find a needle in a haystack every day. I won’t say I felt like dying…that
would mean I felt something, anything at all, but I didn’t. My mind went numb for 7 months. Every day I went in and felt nothing except
wanting to bang my head on desk. This
was supposed to be the best job of my life.
I felt like somebody lied to me!
I had to explain this
to my international friends over a beer and they were shocked as well because I
never complained about it. I never complained because I thought everyone
hated their jobs, not just me. These
particular friends of mine were doing cancer research at a local children's
hospital and they think very differently than us Midwestern folk.
The first thing they
asked is "why the hell are you still in Cincinnati!?"
To be honest with you,
growing up without money in the Midwest, I was inexperienced with travel. In my
mind, traveling to another country is for couples on their honeymoon to do once
in their life if they are lucky. I was single, at 30 years old in Ohio
and did not own a home. If you are not married in Ohio at 30 years old,
even if you have a solid career, you failed at life! I hate to admit, but that has caused some of
my depression over the years. I mean
come on, I was a misfit in Ohio and Wisconsin and anywhere I went except
Chicago, but that's another story.
My friends taught me
that due to their proximity to each other in Europe, seeing other countries was
normal. Enrico asked “Why don’t you take
a vacation somewhere amazing and get out of this terrible place, man!?”
And I said what I'd
said my entire life, “I can't afford it and I don't have anyone to go with.”
Enrico explained that we
have this tendency to want to pair up, with either a significant other or best
friend, and never do anything alone, especially introverted engineers like me.
Due to the pairing up aspect of my life, I have been saving money to get
married one day and buy a house, so relieve my anxiety, I needed to keep a big
down payment in my bank account…like I would magically get married and buy a
house overnight or something.
Hahaha!
So, my friend Enrico
broke it down like this, "You don't have a job, you have tons of money
saved as an engineer at this last job, you don't have a mortgage, school is out
for the summer, you don't have a long term girlfriend, or even a cat? What the
hell are you still doing here?! You could die of cancer tomorrow and what will
that mountain of riches do in your grave? GO LIVE MAN!!!”
For personally reason,
this broke my heart! I don’t know why
this, out of everything in my life so made me feel like I’ve been living a
lie. Maybe it’s just the enthusiasm
Italians speak with, but something in my head snapped.
Right now, I have to
admit that I did have a blank passport for 2 years from a previous job. After some more discussion, and another beer,
I went home to my area which had bars and clubs, had several more depressed
drinks.
I kept thinking “why
the hell is this so hard to do?!”
After hours of
contemplation, that night I ended up with a non-refundable 6 week ticket
in and out to Napoli, Italia (Naples, Italy) for 3 days later. Let
me repeat, 3 days later and I spent 2000$ since it was double the cost.
When I woke up that Saturday morning, after letting the fear sink in, and
there was a LOT of fear, I sent Enrico a text,
"I did a bad
thing man!"
"What?" He replied.
"I bought a
ticket to Italy...in 3 days for 42 nights!"
He came back with
"you, my friend, are the craziest American I know!!! Come over Sunday, we
gotta make plans!!!"
Let me point out here,
I'd never been abroad, did have a passport, and since I grew up poor, I never
in my life had hopes of going to another country. You just don't do that
sort of thing alone. I did not even have a back pack (I got a solid
backpackers bag now). I also did not have anything but a 42 night ticket
in and out of Naples, no hotel, no car, and horror movies on cable TV have
given me a debilitating fear of being murdered and dismantled in hostels in
Europe! OUCH!!! I did not know how
public transportation worked or how big Italy was. I was completely
ignorant of the rest of the world.
Enrico had me buy a
travel guide, the "Lonely Planet" travel guide for Italy; he said
that was going to be my "Bible". And it was! Today, I
have a guide for Italy, Western Europe and now the US. He invited me over
and our German friend Toby and his awesome girlfriend Valeria. We went over
what I was to do in their hometown of Naples giving me 1 week of plans.
He even set me up with 2 nights in a bed and breakfast and let me use his
Italian cell phone on my 6 weeks abroad. Even having never been abroad, I
already had contacts of both of their friends on Facebook and in the phone.
I cannot tell you how much these 2 have changed my life! Those
stories in Naples I could write a book on. I could also write a book just
on the things I screwed up as a newbie traveler. The only thing I was
certain of was that I had a ticket Italy and 2 friends in Paris I met in Cincinnati,
Ohio. 42 days in Europe with no plans, and basically unlimited fundage…yup
every day I made once in a life time memories!
After my awesome
Ohio friend Deanna dropped me off at the airport at the butt crack of dawn, I
boarded the plane alone, and I felt chills down my spine! A layover in NYC and
3 flights later, I had been dropped off in the most beautiful weather I had
ever seen in Naples! The second I
stepped off the plane I knew something in my mind snapped or cracked or
something. I was broken…to my old
life.
I was doing something no
one I grew up with will ever understand.
My friend got me a bed and breakfast in the historic center of Naples, a
very high energy, non-touristy area. The
exhilarating energy was everywhere in the fresh Mediterranean air. Everywhere, people speaking in tongues I
could not understand. The cab ride to
the well hidden BnB was my first hassle with an Italian speaking driver. It was in what looked like a dark and scary
alley you would not go down in the US.
Everything in that area, because it older than our country, looks old
and scary and uniquely picturesque!
After reading my
“Lonely Planet” Italy guide, I found that it taught me maps, history of the
city, speaking some words, hotels, hostels, and ways to get around the
city. It was a life saver many times
over! The first 2 nights I stayed in an EMPTY
BnB by myself, and stayed up all night because JETLAG SUCKS! I had no idea about hostels yet until I
randomly ran into 2 French Canadians girls getting yelled at by a guard trying
to buy ticket in French but he only spoke Italian. Luckily, all my French friends speaking in
front of me taught me how to catch their language.
Those girls and I
ended up hanging out in this Castle in Naples and then they took me to their
hostel after I mentioned I was staying alone.
This changed my life on so many levels.
We walked into what was rated the best hostel in Naples…it wasn’t dark
or dreary and scary, but lit up with young, friendly international people
sitting on bean bag chairs watching movies and drinking beer! After that day I brought my stuff with me and
spent the rest of my time until Paris in hostels making once in a life time
stories with once in a lifetime friends.
Over the next 6 weeks
I wandered aimlessly through 12 cities in 5 countries on my solo trip. I met people who had similar stories or even
better ones and listened in awe of how international people live. The funny thing is everywhere I went,
everyone asked if I was from New York or California, a state I’d never been to,
based on my personality. I went to Naples, Rome, Florence, Sienna, Venice,
Salzburg, Munich, Genoa (Cinque Terre national park where I almost died cliff
diving), Nice, Barcelona (my favorite city), Pamplona ( Running of the Bulls
festival), and Paris, where my awesome friend’s family let me stay in a spare
room for a week and were amazing at educating me on France. The countries were Italy, Austria, Germany,
France and Spain, with a layover in London twice.
The most important
lesson I learned is how friendly travelers can be to each other, because they
know what it’s like to feel absolutely alone and stranded. While I was in a hostel in Florence, Italy, I
was introduced to www.Couchsurfing.org by an Aussie chick. I joined CS then and there after hearing
about it. The problem is you don’t have
much Wi-Fi in Europe so I never used it in Europe. When I got home in mid-July to Ohio I was
already planning escape, but I needed a job to save up money, and I didn’t know
where to move? Basically, I was just
throwing a random dart at a dart board at this point.
I got a job doing
aerospace engineering and I forgot about Couchsurfing until August or
September, when I got my first request from a young guy from Los Angeles,
CA. The reason I hosted this dude was
doing a cross country trip by himself…10 years younger than me, and outdoing
me! I took this as a personal challenge. He taught me how nice all the people were,
but at the end of the day, everyone in the Midwest is the same. I learned how worldly and traveled the people
in California and other coastal cities are.
Based on staying friends with John and another friend who escaped
Cincinnati to San Fran, I planned a trip to CA to Couchsurf for my first time.
During Christmas, I took my 2 weeks of vacation time and
decided to check out CA. I spent 12 days
Couchsurfing in San Fran, Los Angeles to see my first Couchsurfer but stayed
with another, San Diego a house away from the beach, and Tijuana, Mexico for my
birthday, New Year’s Eve. The best part
of staying on someone’s couch is that you get to know the locals, the hangouts,
not just the touristy areas your corporate hotel has been PAID to tell you to
visit. You learn a lot about what’s
wrong with corporate America when you travel abroad to hostels and the garbage
we get sold here. I decided that while I
loved SF, it rained every day I was there but one, LA is too much fakeness and
dirty water on the beaches, and I never even imagined going to San Diego, but a
friend I met in a hostel in Europe lived here so I checked it out.
I stayed on the beach,
in December when my hometown is -30 degrees…a 100 degree temperature
difference! It was paradise!!!
I went home, dropped
out of grad school, got overtime at my work, worked 7 days a week for months
and saved up. I sold all my worldly
belongings except what fit in my car and what planned on being a single city to
check out on my way to CA, turned into me seeing 14 places and hitting my 37th
state. I went from my hometown in
Wisconsin, where there was 4 inches of ice in April, all the way down to Key
West most southern point, and from the Atlantic Ocean on the East coast to the
Pacific here in CA. It was an eye
opening experience to be let into others homes and have dinner or be shown around
their favorite spots. I did have to
sleep in my car 5 nights, but it was pretty nice weather in May. My favorite spots are driving across the
Florida Keys to Key West and New Orleans for its amazing energy and culture you
don’t see anywhere else! J
Never will I tell you
this move to San Diego has been an easy transition, since I still don’t have an
mechanical engineering job, but after many struggles this last year and having
to figure out where I want my career to be, I’m still happier than I’ve ever
been! Everybody here is happier than
they’ve ever been back home! I am in San
Diego now and have hosted many people on Couchsurfing from around the world. Living 3 blocks from the beach has it’s
perks, since I take bikes rides on the boardwalk. I live 2 blocks from the most
beautiful beach in the country. I want
to go live in Europe in the next few years after my time in SD. I’ve got 2 years and my new graduate program
is up and I’ll take it from there. I’m
no longer afraid to do things alone, because of that “beer that changed my
life.” I recommend you go out and try
something you are afraid of today. Don’t
wait because you will never do it! J
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